pharaohking

I had a terrible day today .. well first it was good but it's ending like shit ..
i went for a photowalk into the desert and mountains ,, was a very good atmosphere to shoot .. blue skies with nice clouds and great shapes of mountains .. i took like 300 shots which i really liked .. after turning back home and while viewing them on my camera b4 attaching it to the laptop .. i accidently deleted like 250 photos .. and all i have now r the worst 54 photos of the whole day .. i feel really really bad .. its hard to go there again and i was sooo craving to photograph cuz its been monthes since i gone for a photowalk ..
its really depressing .. sigh ..

hard times at work
hard times at home
hard times even when um by my own ..
wanna run away .. but dont know where to go ..
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These days drift on inside a fog
It's thick and suffocating
This seeking life outside its hell
Inside intoxicating
He's run aground
Like his life
Water's much too shallow
Slipping fast
Down with the ship
Fading in the shadows now
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a decision a word or a road can change your life forever .. life is unpredictable .. we keep planing and only God knows where we r walking .. no matter how much we plan .. our trip can be to elsewhere ..

I'm happy and satisfied .. life isnt fair .. but we have to deal with that ..

well .. ysterday i was checking some of facebook messages between me n old friend .. i realized how sweet .. kind  .. smart .. funny .. and attractive in every single way .. just one thing is not soo good abt her .. she always expect the  worst so she trust no one .. thats why she used to misunderstand me .. thats what i got from abt 3 hours of reading the inbox between us .. any way .. after waking up today i realize that i had a dream abt her .. was a good one

its so hard to be hated .. or to always be misunderstood .. and u cant force no one to be friends with u .. even if u both keep checking on each other every now and then .. and still ..

its also hard to change ppl the way u want " or change them back " the way they used to be specially when they nvr force u to change .. u just have to deal with them the way they are cuz u blv nobody is perfect .. or u  walk away looking for a friend who's Mr.perfect ..