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a terrible day

by ~pharaohking, Feb 14, 2013, 4:11:29 PM
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Mood: Shitty

I had a terrible day today .. well first it was good but it's ending like shit ..
i went for a photowalk into the desert and mountains ,, was a very good atmosphere to shoot .. blue skies with nice clouds and great shapes of mountains .. i took like 300 shots which i really liked .. after turning back home and while viewing them on my camera b4 attaching it to the laptop .. i accidently deleted like 250 photos .. and all i have now r the worst 54 photos of the whole day .. i feel really really bad .. its hard to go there again and i was sooo craving to photograph cuz its been monthes since i gone for a photowalk ..
its really depressing .. sigh ..

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hard times

by ~pharaohking, Jan 10, 2013, 1:34:07 PM
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hard times at work
hard times at home
hard times even when um by my own ..
wanna run away .. but dont know where to go ..
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These days drift on inside a fog
It's thick and suffocating
This seeking life outside its hell
Inside intoxicating
He's run aground
Like his life
Water's much too shallow
Slipping fast
Down with the ship
Fading in the shadows now
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Mood: Shitty
Listening to: metallica
Drinking: coffee

satisfied ..

by ~pharaohking, Dec 4, 2012, 2:18:44 PM
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a decision a word or a road can change your life forever .. life is unpredictable .. we keep planing and only God knows where we r walking .. no matter how much we plan .. our trip can be to elsewhere ..

I'm happy and satisfied .. life isnt fair .. but we have to deal with that ..

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Mood: Daily Needs
Listening to: MM - speed of pain
Reading: nothing
Watching: Dr House
Playing: nothing
Drinking: cranberries juice

its happening again !

Journal Entry: Thu Nov 10, 2011, 4:05 PM

I really need to be rude with my female friends ..
maybe this is gonna be the only way to keep them !!! yes !
cuz all I want is friendship .. and this is maybe the 4th time to lose a really good friend .. cuz of this ..
fuck love .. i'm no one's lover !

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Listening to: leaves eyes - elegy
Reading: alf lela w lela
Watching: ..
Playing: nothing
Eating: patchi
Drinking: nescafe

i had a friend

by ~pharaohking, Sep 30, 2011, 6:10:34 AM
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well .. ysterday i was checking some of facebook messages between me n old friend .. i realized how sweet .. kind .. smart .. funny .. and attractive in every single way .. just one thing is not soo good abt her .. she always expect the worst so she trust no one .. thats why she used to misunderstand me .. thats what i got from abt 3 hours of reading the inbox between us .. any way .. after waking up today i realize that i had a dream abt her .. was a good one

its so hard to be hated .. or to always be misunderstood .. and u cant force no one to be friends with u .. even if u both keep checking on each other every now and then .. and still ..

its also hard to change ppl the way u want " or change them back " the way they used to be specially when they nvr force u to change .. u just have to deal with them the way they are cuz u blv nobody is perfect .. or u walk away looking for a friend who's Mr.perfect ..

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Listening to: right nxt 2 the right 1
Reading: ..
Watching: ..
Playing: nothing
Drinking: barbican

I got my baby girl :D

by ~pharaohking, Sep 23, 2011, 5:38:32 PM
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well .. first time I saw her .. I fall in love !
when I met her face to face .. I couldnt resist her beauty .. and elegance !
I was like : God ! she's mine !
and with no hesitation .. I went to propose ..
payed whatever she wanted .. and finally she's with me !

Its my new car : Aceent RB 2012 !!
Um so In love with it

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Mood: Joy
Listening to: nothing
Reading: ..
Watching: ..
Playing: nothing
Drinking: barbican

18 - 19 - 20 aug

by ~pharaohking, Aug 19, 2011, 10:41:47 AM
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worst three days of my life !
18 - 19 - 20 aug

18 : when the love of my life told me that we have to stop seeing each other and maybe this is better for us .. and if we were meant to be together ,, we will be together anyhow ..

I miss my ex GF

19 : when my best friend passed away .. allah yer7amk ya Muhammed ..

I really miss him alot

20 : when my mom does her cancer operation 5 years ago .. but thx god she's all good now ..

..

will ,, this year .. 21 august is the day um going back to Egypt .. so ? hmm .. cross ur fingers pls !

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Mood: Lazy
Listening to: reason why
Reading: ..
Watching: ..
Playing: actually um packing !

2 days .. 23 days !

Journal Entry: Thu Jul 28, 2011, 1:39 PM

2 days left from my premium membership .. its hard to extend it now but maybe a couple of weeks i'll ..
well it was good being a premium member ..

and also 23 days left till um in Egypt ..
oh i miss Egypt and i miss my gang .. coming to u guyz !

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Mood: Lazy
Listening to: Enigma i love u i kill u
Reading: ..
Watching: ..
Playing: PES 2011
Eating: chocolate
Drinking: Pepsi

Devious Journal Entry

Journal Entry: Thu Jul 21, 2011, 6:33 PM

One day I'll scream and no one will hear me ..
One day I'll cry my past a river and will be nothing to return ..
One day I'll speak a language that no one understand ..
One day I'll ache like never b4 .. and break like never b4

I deserve nothing I have .. God pls have mercy ..

Photo by ~OperationDropkick

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Devious Journal Entry

Journal Entry: Thu Jul 14, 2011, 4:15 PM

Mood: Anguish
Listening to: michael jackson .. stranger in Moscow
Reading: my hands ,, searching the answer
Watching: the sky .. i have not the answer
Playing: my role in life .. helpless
Eating: lies ! swallowing masks !
Drinking: from her dead lips

things change ,, but nothing changes
and still there are changes ..

Le Roi est mort, vive le Roi!

I miss Egypt ,, I cant wait to hug my friends ,,
cant wait to wander through Cairo streets ..
watching people ..
reading faces .. different faces .. different hearts ..
people I met once .. twice .. or maybe we met in some other world ..

5 weeks 2 days 1 hour ...

. . .

sending messages .. and they know .. they do ..

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not anymore

Journal Entry: Mon Jun 13, 2011, 3:27 PM

I never asked to be someone's favorite person .. actually i did once and i was .. but never did again ..
so why some people act that um her or his favorite ?
why do people like to lie ?
its ok if um ur friend .. just like that ,, i never mean to be ur best ..
so dont tell me um ur best when um not ..
cuz being honest to me is more fucking important than being my BIGGEST FAN !

from here on i believe there aint no " everlasting friendship " or " immortal love " !
its just me and u friends now .. tomorrow maybe not .. and i'll deal like this !
u r good to me .. u r my friend .. tomorrow u are not good then u can fuck off .. !
um not sitting back thinking how good we was together once ... twice or maybe or for long time ..

It sux being someone's favorite cuz he is like : " man how can we do this " ?
or being someone's " Idol " cuz she loves the way u FUCK her !
or other person's MAN cuz he can borrow money whenever he wants ..
then they all can turn their back to u later .. like : oh sorry do I know you ?

why I always meet people like this ?
why I never find the one ?
is that the way things should be ?
am I that odd ? that old ?

any way i'll deal with it my way .. its me and no one else ..

See a new beginning rise behind the sun
We can´t never catch up to them as fast as we run

Journal coding by ~Thewinator
Journal design by ^pica-ae

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Mood: Rage
Listening to: scorpions : time
Reading: nothing !
Watching: nothing
Eating: nothing
Drinking: water !

SAL75300

Journal Entry: Tue Jun 7, 2011, 3:41 PM

Mood: Lazy
Listening to: seether careless whispers
Reading: nothing !
Watching: nothing
Eating: nothing
Drinking: water !

well ,, i finally got my SAL75300 .. i guess its a good lens .. i tired it in some shots so far ..
a very good DOF .. good zooming .. and a lightweight .. its just needs a tight hand when its on the 300 mm
any way .. waiting for the weekend to make the real test ..

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Insomnia

Mon May 30, 2011, 1:58 PM

Mood: Unhappy
Listening to: george michael you have been loved
Reading: nothing !
Watching: nothing
Eating: nothing
Drinking: rockers

Gallery Prints Faves Website

hard days .. sleepless nights ..
what happened to me again ?
i have no will to do anything !
i even took many new shots but too depressed to even share them !
i guess i miss something .. or someone ..

ما للكواكب لا تنام ولا تني .. قد طال سهدك يا كواكب فارقدي

كم تنظرين إلى الثرى من حالق .. ما في الثرى لأخي الأسى من مسعد

أو ما تريني عندما اشتد الدجى .. واشتد دائي نام عني عودي

حتى لقد كاد القريض يعقني .. ويصون عني ماءه وأنا الصدي

لا تسأليني لم سهدت فإنني .. لو كان في وسعي الكرى لم أسهد

صرفت يد البلوى يدي عن أمرها .. ما خلت أمري قط يخرج من يدي

في أضلعي نار أذابت أضلعي .. ومشت إلى كبدي ولما تخمد

أخشى على الأحشاء من كتمانها .. وأخاف أن أشكوا فيشمت حسدي

ايليا ابو ماضي - ما للكواكب

Insomnia

Skin by =fantasy-alive

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Journal Entry: Wed May 18, 2011, 10:21 AM

Mood: Tired
Listening to: Marilyn Manson - 15
Reading: nothing !
Watching: nothing
Playing: PES 2011
Eating: nothing
Drinking: mango coctail

well yesterday was my birthday .. I dnt know why I get sad in my birthdays ! well knowing that u r one year closer to the grave aint a good thing anyway ..

so .. thats it i'm a one year closer to my grave !
wish me luck ! cuz i dnt know if i die where exactly um gonna be ,, cuz I'm like my friend MM said :
(forbidden in Heaven and useless in Hell)

يا ابنة الفجرِ من احبَّكِ ميتٌ

و لأنتِ بمِثلِ هذا مهينه

فأصيخي , هل تسمعينَ خفوقاً

كنتِ قبلاً في صدرهِ تسمعينه

طَوَت الارضُ من طوى الارضَ حيّاً

و علاهُ من كانَ بالأمسِ دونَه

و اذا ما وقفتِ عند السواقي

و ذكرتِ وقوفه و سكونه

و اذا ما مشيتِ في الروضِ يوماً

و وطئتِ سهولهُ و حزونه

فإلثمي كلّ زهرةٍ فيه , انّي

كنتُ أهوى زهورهُ و غصونه

ثُمَّ قولي للطير : ماتَ حبيبي

فلماذا يا طير لا تبكينه ؟

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ايليا ابو ماضي - ابنة الفجر

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A W A Y

Thu May 5, 2011, 4:43 PM

Mood: Unhappy
Listening to: celine dion
Reading: nothing !
Watching: nothing
Playing: nothing
Eating: cocktail !
Drinking: nothing

I'm not feeling so well ..
I just wanna go away ..
to a place where no body knows
where there's only me
near a sea or a river
to live there forever
no one but me .. nature .. and eternity
to spend my quite nights
and get away from everything around me
but memories ..

a song with memories

When I need you
Just close my eyes and I'm with you
And all that I so want to give you
It's only a heart beat away

When I need love
I hold out my hands and I touch love
I never knew there was so much love
Keeping me warm night and day

Miles and miles of empty space in between us
A telephone can't take the place of your smile
But you know I wont be traveling for ever
It's cold out, but hold out and do like I do

some of last week stunning photography

:thumb207284058:

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100 Dayz

Thu Apr 28, 2011, 10:59 AM

Mood: Unhappy
Listening to: zoe johnston : crazy english summer
Reading: nothing !
Watching: soccer ..
Playing: nothing
Eating: snickers !
Drinking: nothing

well almost 100 days left till um back finally to Egypt .. the most amazing place on the planet .. I love Egypt with everything it is .. its people .. its crowded streets .. its quite winter nights .. its awaken summer nights ..
i miss my friends .. i miss my home .. i miss wandering into cairo streets at night .. watching people around me .. creating story about every face i c .. happy stories sad ending .. sad story happy ending .. this is life .. and this is Egypt .. Egypt is my life
one wish i have .. to stay alive those 100 dayz till um back there

here is some amazing clicks ..

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"Total Eclipse Of The Moon"

Journal Entry: Sat Apr 23, 2011, 2:57 PM

Mood: Unhappy
Listening to: Enigma - Total Eclipse of The Moon
Reading: nothing !
Watching: nothing
Playing: nothing
Eating: nothing
Drinking: nothing

Miles Away From Light At Noon
Total Eclipse Of The Moon
Many Reasons To Believe In Life
Just Listen What It`s Telling You

Come And Have A Look Inside
Total Eclipse Of The Moon
Don`t Be Childish, Don`t Be So Cruel
I`m Feeling Just Lonely Without.... Without You

I Can See The Wide Horizons
But Debts Have To Be Paid
Our Ways Will Cross Again Someday
Believe, And Come Back To You...I`ll See You Soon

Time Doesn`t Say Hello
Total Eclipse Of The Moon
Many Nights In Our Lives Before
I Was Dreaming To Be Just Beside...Beside You

Total Eclipse Of The Moon...I`ll See You Soon

Enigma - total eclipse of the moon

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some stunning photography :

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nightmares

Sun Apr 17, 2011, 3:25 PM

Mood: Anguish
Listening to: zoe johnston : crazy english summer
Reading: nothing !
Watching: my daily nightmares ..
Playing: nothing
Eating: nothing
Drinking: nothing

  its so scary having no one !

                                                                                                       so scary being by urself !

                                                                       and the most scary thing is : that u become used to be alone ..

                                                                               u hate to have people around " oh they r so noisy " !

                                                                  so its so sad not to be able to find the one .. who u can run to when u are down ..

                                                                                                                I have no one ..
                                                                                                              i'm all by myself ..
                                                                                                    and i have no one to run to ..

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some great photography I wish I can ever do the same !